Please, receive my gifts. These will be my offerings, my oblation for the love offered by you. I am empty now and I want to return in a way or another, pieces of all that little and immense universe that you have started to give it, to me. I am empty now and I still want you to receive, even the emptiness of my heart. I am empty now and I want you to receive the colours of my fears. I am empty now and I am scared that I will remain like this. And now, please be merciful and help me fill in that space in my soul. I want you to broke that chain of my storms. I know you can do it. I am begging you, today, unbound me and make me free. So that I can choose myself, once again. So that I can choose you, once again. Fill me in with your presence, fill me in with your perfume, fill me in with the sound of your whispers. And just stay next to me…quietly, in the greatest silence possible.
duminică, 16 iulie 2017
Life is born where there is a word. Life ends where the word is born ... on your lips. Therefore, I beg you, accept the silence and listen only to the tremors of time. I decided to leave the bedroom in a such a rush. I slammed the door behind me, thinking that you will say something. Then a deep silence was settling down. A lingering calmness that was burning my thoughts. I have known from that moment that you understood. You have never came after me. I was so naïve. In the same time, I knew that I will never change. Everything will be the same. I will be the same. Only the time will be different…it is less than I had before. And I can see it with clear eyes, the end and the beginning of my life. I can see the end because there is no end. There is only transformation of my state. I can recognize the word that created us all. Is it desire? Is it love? It might be just…life!
joi, 13 iulie 2017
I will start to sing again. Tonight…I will sing about life. My life…so wonderful, so hard to bear it. So hard to understand but so easy to love it…Yes, I am in love with life. With everything that has life in it. I love people and hate them in the same time… I love myself, I hate myself… I am here, waiting to go slower, to stop for a moment. I want to stop, to stop the time, to stop and to feel once again life that flows through my veins. But it goes faster and faster. I am not rushing… I have now the time. Today, just today. And now, yes…just touch my hand and start to sing for me because I started losing my strength, I am losing my voice. Please, sing for me. And now, it is time for me to leave. I need to sleep and you need to sing for me, from a distance. But, do not forget, my hand is still holding yours. And yes, each song can have its own colour…mine is blue.