luni, 9 octombrie 2017

The fight of my free will

I have always believed that each person has been made to be good. His initial task has been to be a ’’good person’’. And because of our native and origin construction we would like always to help. Have you ever thought that the other person might not need your help? Or, have you ever thougt about the fact that other person does not want it? Of course not, ‘cause you are too kind to help the others’’. And as you can notice, I was ironic. Despite our biological treasure, we received an amazing gift. This is called ’’free will”. This concept is very well known in the area of philosophy and religion. And I agree upon all the the theories that might support its supremacy in human's life. But, basically, it is all about common sense. It is about being perceptive to the needs of the other. My free will has always dictated my way of conduct, my way of behaving. Even my good intention to say ’’let me help you’’. I will not help you unless you will ask for my help. I will not help you, unless you will come to say that you need me. I will not ask for help, unless your life depends on my help. Otherwise, I might steel your chance to learn your lesson. And today is about lessons. Do not give up on your lessons. Enjoy them!

luni, 17 iulie 2017

A fulfilled existence

Please, receive my gifts. These will be my offerings, my oblation for the love offered by you. I am empty now and I want to return in a way or another, pieces of all that little and immense universe that you have started to give it, to me. I am empty now and I still want you to receive, even the emptiness of my heart. I am empty now and I want you to receive the colours of my fears. I am empty now and I am scared that I will remain like this. And now, please be merciful and help me fill in that space in my soul. I want you to broke that chain of my storms. I know you can do it. I am begging you, today, unbound me and make me free. So that I can choose myself, once again. So that I can choose you, once again. Fill me in with your presence, fill me in with your perfume, fill me in with the sound of your whispers. And just stay next to me…quietly, in the greatest silence possible.

duminică, 16 iulie 2017

The word that gives life

Life is born where there is a word. Life ends where the word is born ... on your lips. Therefore, I beg you, accept the silence and listen only to the tremors of time. I decided to leave the bedroom in a such a rush. I slammed the door behind me, thinking that you will say something. Then a deep silence was settling down. A lingering calmness that was burning my thoughts. I have known from that moment that you understood. You have never came after me. I was so naïve. In the same time, I knew that I will never change. Everything will be the same. I will be the same. Only the time will be different…it is less than I had before. And I can see it with clear eyes, the end and the beginning of my life. I can see the end because there is no end. There is only transformation of my state. I can recognize the word that created us all. Is it desire? Is it love? It might be just…life!